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I don't want the whole to see me,
cause I dont think they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know
who I am

I just want you to know who I am.

Kynny-kynn
A surplus of snobbery
The more you read about me, the more you hate me
I know its not right, but its only fair
coz you can never be me

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

I wish I never have to wake up to tomorrow and the upcoming days.

depressed.

posted at 6:09 AM

Friday, May 22, 2009

its getting tougher to handle @ times.

LDR.

posted at 9:07 AM

Thursday, May 21, 2009

In a LDR, it is bound to have that feeling of insecurity.

but he ensure me by sms-ing me this,

"I want to tell my children that your mother was my first and last girlfriend/love"

Romantic right. Not?

oh well, at least it was for me.

this was one of the rare occasion when he would reach this extend of romanticism.

posted at 7:46 AM

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Dear Sheikh-kin

It has been almost 48hrs since you left for overseas posting.
I am still trying to get used to the fact that you will no longer be around here with me, here in Singapore.

Finally I've to face this situation. Now, I can finally answer the question people often asked me..
Then how? How are u going to cope.

I guess this is the story......

I survived the first day.
We only talked for less than 5minutes before you hung up followed by 5 on and off smses and silence for the rest of the day.

I kept myself occupied by playing with my cats, surfing e net.

I am still trying not to shed a tear.

I hug MOK MOK and Belo to sleep.

2nd day : 10-05-09

A morning greeting sms from you at 8am and silence till 1pm.
sigh.
I am terribly missing you.
Emptiness in my heart.

I am still trying not to cry.
I try to occupy myself by getting my hair done today.

But why does every place I went to remind me of you.

I miss having the stopover at CK Tang to get the Otah,Sushi and Sugarcane juice to tapao for movie and such. I only got myself the sugarcane since I've got no one to share the Otah with.

The hair salon.
First thing the hairstylist asked was YOU.
I told you, it really feels weird to be going to places that we often frequent ALONE.
I miss having you wait for me while I get my hair done.
Earlier today, when I turned to the right, it wasnt you.
You wasnt there to give me opinion that I needed.
You wasnt there to warn me not to complain of regrets after cutting my hair.
You wasnt there to tell me that my hairstyle is ok and I still look pretty in your eyes.
You wasnt there.

At the end of the hair treatment and cut, I went to my favourite ice cream place.
For the first time, i ate it all by myself.
No sharing it with you. No 'Breakfast in Bed' for me.
I had 'Hot Chicks' instead.

I walked around Far East.
I couldnt tell you how much I want to get the bikers jacket.
You wasnt there to hear me say that the blazers are the IN thing now.

You didnt get to know how I intend to style the blazers with my outfit.

You wasnt there to shook your head when I choose all the extra-ordinary non essential colour for shoes.

You wasnt there to hear me say that this this this is sooooo cheap at Bangkok. Its so expensive here in SIngapore. I wanna go Bangkok!

You wasnt there to witness me criticising people's fashion crime.

You wasnt there.

For the very first time, I reached home before 9pm
Uncle Hanafi must be pleased!

I know you are not going to be there to tend to my hunger pangs in the weirdest hr.
Before going home, I went to the store to stock up on my snacks.
You must be proud of me.
I know you are often worried that I couldnt take care of myself.
You know that I wouldnt eat if there is no food at home.
You know that I wouldnt forced myself out of the house to buy food.

You are the one who often drag me to the supermarket to stock up on my snacks.
Now I ve to do it on my own.

I've lost the appetite to eat.
I've always enjoy eating out since mother never cook anymore.
Now,
You will see the skinny me, like the first time you saw me.

I miss you so much that it hurts.
I text you to call me to let me hear your voice even for few seconds.

as much as I try to control myself to not cry, I finally falter.

Hearing your voice, I cried.
1 mins up.

We hung up.

I terribly miss you.

I hope I'll survive the 3rd day too.
I hope you will do something with your internet connection so that I can see you.

Loves,
Sheikin

posted at 7:30 AM

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Salah satu tanda-tanda kecil Kiamat

1. Zina Bermahajalela

"Dan tinggallah manusia-manusia yang buruk, yang seenaknya melakukan persetubuhan seperti himar (keldai). Maka pada zaman mereka inilah kiamat akan datang."

Subhan'allah.

posted at 4:04 PM

I'm Viva la vida-fied.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

smashingly aweeeeeeeeeesome performance.

hot looking guys to tops it.

heh

posted at 8:47 PM

Thursday, March 19, 2009

i. am. emotionally. physically.tired.

posted at 9:20 AM

Saturday, March 14, 2009

i can foresee the upcoming weeks filled with kecohness.

till the bro's wedding is over.

posted at 9:55 PM

I am kindda speechless.

lets just wait till the day.